Friday, May 31, 2013

Realitinya aku menangis

Serius aku insan lemah.
Serius aku insan yg mampu di goda oleh musuh  manusia iaitu syaitan.  Serius aku mempersoalkan urusan tuhan.
Serius aku ni tak bersyukur.
Serius aku ni mcm x payah sembahyang pun x apalah.
Serius apa yang aku cakap ni hasil dari luluhnya hati dari harapan.
Serius aku perlukan penyelesaian. Serius aku tahu ini ujian utkku tetapi kenapa susah sgt utk aku terimanya. Serius aku x mampu buat apa-apa.

Kau tuhan aku hamba mu.

Aku skrg ini ibarat hitam.
Serius aku perlukan mu Puteh.

Serius puteh yang tak putus harapan dgnku yang hingga extreme bagi aku penampor laju laju biar aku sedar sket.

Bukan apa penampor tuh utk aku sedar betapa hinanya keadaan aku skrg ini.

Serius aku nak kau.

Puteh!

Serius puteh aku tahu kau adlh harapan tuhan bgi utk aku.

P/s: aku bukak mata nangis kembali. Best betul kalau aku dlm dunia mimpi dan bukan realiti.

6.09pagi

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Jenis Lelaki

Lelaki

Yang paling sweet itu yang bagi tahi.

P/s: doakan aku untuk masa depan aku yang jauh tak tentu lagi.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Realitinya

Hati ku semak,
Hati ku sempit,
Macam tak ada ruang ,
untuk cinta-cintun ni.

Bukan apa,
Kita buang masa,
buang tenaga ,
apatah lagi celaru rasa.

Bahagia, Seronok, Manis, Sayang
Itu yang best aje,

Perit, Pedih, Sedih, Sangsi, Cemburu, Kecewa...
Kuat pulak aku nak tadahkannya?

Bukan apa,
Semuanya kabur,
Tiada pangkal hujung,

Kalau kau sukakan aku,
Aku suka kan kau,
Jangan putus doanya,
Suatu hari nanti,
Insyallah dimakbulkan Ilahi.


Tuesday, May 14, 2013

I am SCARED

I've always been a girl who is ambitious,
I wanna climb the wall,
I wanna feel how hard is it to climb those wall,

I wanna jump off the building,
I wanna know how exhilarating it is,

I wanna dive in the sea,
I wanna feel the deepness of water , dark, scary but fascinating with the sea creatures,
I wanna be in front of people, giving out speech,
debates, arguing on my points, let them know what I'm dying to prove on,

I wanna be someone who useful to society,
I dream big,
I want to help strayed kids and show them the world are not always fair and it's us who changed it,

I wanna be a mother,
I will give out all my loved to those tiny human,
I will take care of them till they are big enough to do their own judgement,
and once a while they will come to their mama and ask did they do right in their life
and I loved to have those feeling.

All my dream are ambitious enough for me,

But The only thing that I'm afraid is,

to be in love again.
I'm damn scared of it.
I know I'm a chicken.

Do you know when your in love,
you are risking yourself to be hurt,
you let your heart exposed to pain,
and end up crying like a mad person?
and yet we still want it!

I wish I can be that strong ambitious woman without any feeling
so that I would not feel those pain...
Please tell me there a reason why we need to feel those pain.

p/s: my first blog post in 2013 turn out to be a heartbreaking emotion diary. I'm sorry you have to read this and thanks for your attention.


Am I ready for  this?